30 Going On 13

Today is my birthday and I am 30 years of age baby! I like to spend every birthday looking back at the previous year, this one is special though because I am entering a new decade and I feel like I haven’t even reached the peak of my higher self, 30 is the era that I become closer to enlightenment. I wanted to go down memory lane of my twenties and talk about my experiences and what I learned from them, then write what I hope to learn in my 30s :). Let’s jump right in baby!

My Twenties: Well, it has been quite the journey to get to 30, my twenties were wild and a little chaotic. I started my twenties by coming out to my friends as gay, I waited to tell everyone on my 20th birthday since it was my golden birthday on 10/20 (I know, such a typical Libra) lol. I met my first boyfriend, Nick. It is still my favorite relationship I ever experienced, I was so lucky to have such an amazing first boyfriend, he was such an amazing partner. He was my first for everything gay and sexual ❤. I went on to intern for Giorgio Armani, which was such an amazing experience and really woke up my dream of wanting to be a performing artist. That dream was always there but it was defiantly put to the side for so long! I went on to do some cool things in my mid twenties, I danced for the Nets at the Barclays Center, I was in an off broadway show, I started dance and acting training. I was starting to take control of my life, well so I thought! Around 24 I dated my second boyfriend, this relationship became abusive and I let him get away with it. I thought that I could be around and fix him, little did I know, it was self love that I needed! Around 28, my life started to become clearer, I started facing my anxiety and started going to therapy. I started making sense of these anxious feelings I have experienced, I felt like I understood myself for the first time ever. I started writing about my self sabotage tendencies via poetry ( https://www.amazon.com/dp/1087884802/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_MYSSM6EPBF2K51RAVR26), which lead into me publishing my first ever book. I started creating the Antonio Liranzo legacy, I always wanted! I started tuning into my empathy and putting together all the puzzle pieces, on to why I was always so sensitive ❤. Vulnerability is courage, and for that, I am courageous. I met my 3rd boyfriend, which was a short lived relationship. That relationship taught me that I defiantly was not ready to date yet, I still had lots of self work to do! A few demons that I had left to challenge was, why I was always attracted to damaged people that I thought I could fix? I had a really bad savior complex that lead me to more distress than validation! I realized it was all linked to my abusive child trauma that conditioned me into thinking that the only way I can be loved and feel important is if I felt needed. Once I started working on that and realizing my truth, I started to really see my life clearly, I believe in being a good human, staying in your lane and speaking out on whats right. Your story is your story and no one can take that away from you. I am open to so much now including love, and the good love, not that fake validation toxic love! I was able to publish two more books in my twenties :), this year, I released “Romance In A Modern World” ( https://www.amazon.com/dp/1087937116/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_fabc_6J59GHTKGEERZ1T21CDE) about all my hopeless romantic moments. And then I released “Antonio’s Return” (https://www.amazon.com/dp/B092BHDZ97/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_glt_ADXDK5TS5MP6XZ4T6N31), which documents my past 29.5 years on this Earth and signifies my Saturn return. This past year, I have learned so much and I am excited to step into a new decade!

Hello Thirties

So my Saturn Return has come to an end and Saturn is now chilling in the same spot that it was, when I was born ❤. For people that dont know what Saturns Return is, here is a little explanation. Saturn takes about 29.5 years to orbit around the sun, meaning that when we are around 28–30 we start feeling changes from childhood into full blown adulthood. This can be anything from a new home, a career change, a break up or a new relationship etc. We start seeing what we need and what we feel is right for us! So here are some things that I have learned and am excited to bring into my 30s ❤.

1. Vulnerability is sexy! It is so hot to have your heart on your sleeve, GOOD GUYS FINISH FIRST!
2. Be aware of people that make you happy and that dont!
3. Know your triggers! I now know what triggers my anxiety! Low intensity and high vibrations baby!
4. Fashion Choices! They are choices lmao.
5. No sugary drinks! I am over these hangovers lmao.
6. Know your worth! Go for what you want!
7. Manifestation! You are in charge of your future! (Ask, Believe, Receive).
8. I am ready to date and I am now aware on how I want to love and be loved.
9. Take your time! Things should not be rushed. If the timing is right, it is right.
10. Know your drug and alcohol use. Certain things trigger others.
11. Own Your Narrative, Own Your Truth & You Are Not Going To Please Everyone!

Love, Antonio

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Related Podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/30-going-on-13/id1524578079?i=1000539210470

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