Socializing

Have you ever felt like you give it your all sometimes to just fit in or enjoy every single moment in life? Do you feel that in that moment its just pure fun but when the fun is over you feel exhausted and your energy is depleted ? This is something I have been going through. What is it about enjoying the moment but then beating yourself up about how you should’ve been productive and not hungover, or how you should have more “me time” instead of trying to hangout with a friend all the time. Of course its all about balance but I am human, balance is a really hard concept.

I have so many moments, where I love being out and have those moments of knowing I am wearing a hot outfit, feeling sexy and am ready to take over the world! But then 1 night leads to 2 nights which leads to 4 nights in a week which leads to 10–15 nights a month of going out and overly socializing and putting important things on the side such as sleep, meditation, self care, side projects.

I am an artist so I am always having a side project, but when I am running around everywhere I lose track so fast. I should really be focusing and putting my creativity first. But also how many moments do you miss in life? Shouldn’t I be experiencing life as someone in their twenties in one of the best cities in the world? This is a consistent battle in my head, where is that fine line of living my best life but also making sure I am productive and working towards my career and health?

Or is my living my best life focusing on what I truly love the most, performing art and then everything comes second?

Or maybe I found who I truly am ; A extroverted introvert that is trying to enjoy life in a social manor but really just wants his intimate self creative moments. The world is a stage of course, but your brain and comfort is home ❤

Best,

Antonio Liranzo