Too Sensitive For Dating
“Is it real or is it in my head”?- Ariana Grande
Where do I even start? Like Olivia Rodrigo says, “God, it’s brutal out here”. It is hard to date as a sensitive human. A lot of men are trash and a lot of them are fuck boys. As an empath, I believe that the euphoric dopamine rush when meeting someone new, affects me harder than an average person. The euphoria I get when I am infatuated with someone is sometimes uncontrollable. While we are on the topic of hormones, Oxytocin is also a strong neurotransmitter for my body, the attachment level I feel when I have a partner is insanely high, the energy I receive from hugs and orgasms is some of the strongest sensations I have ever felt.
I have a hard time when I meet someone new, I have had experiences where I met someone in a new city and that euphoria was so strong from a new person + new scenery/traveling buzz, that we made plans to visit each other and possibly date. When that travel buzz wears off, you start thinking if the person you were talking to still feels the same way. Majority of the time, I am not scared to try something new (even if that means dating across country), so I always end up hurt when the other person realizes they were talking in a fun, euphoric mania manner.
Now, with these situations, I can either withdraw and cry for days ( I totally have done that) or I can take the frustration and hurt of someone else not knowing what they want and the actions of someone radiating their fuck boy energy on me in stride. It does sting when someone plays with my vulnerabilities, but I am a proud vulnerable lover and I refuse to give someone that power to scorn me from trying to love someone! I do need to buy some fuck boy repellent spray though, so I can sense when they are around me and spray them away!
The thing is, one night stands or one time travel moments don’t bother me. What bothers me, is when a guy has a big talk game and makes empty promises when it’s their idea to continue talking and then the next day they ghost. Mean what you say and say what you mean! I am tired of these fuck boys talking such a big game and act like they want you forever! Don’t wine and dine me, tell me you would date me, ask about deep level shit, say you want to have Facetime dates, say that you want me to visit and then just ghost!
I am a working progress and I know my heart will always go through trials and tribulations, but the beautiful thing about being sensitive and being vulnerable is that, I AM A DAMN GOOD LOVER & SPECIAL AS FUCK! ❤.
Love, Antonio Liranzo
Related Podcast Episode: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/tingz-tea-time-f-k-boys-being-too-sensitive-to-date/id1524578079?i=1000533143991
https://open.spotify.com/episode/0pdcHws2bzsLcpD19rj5YE?si=itwcQNatSlWmJyBxRiol1Q&dl_branch=1
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